The best part of The Shattering happening is that the kids and I get to rebuild a life that suits us. We get to distinguish the rules, the celebrations, the traditions we follow. It’s as if we have re-generated out of thin air. As if we are characters in a Read more…
For decades I really haven’t enjoyed the holiday season. I’ve been referred to as the Grinch of the family. Thanksgiving is food centered, and usually involves spending time with family or friends that we’ve adopted into our family. I LOVE to cook for a crowd, so of course I have Read more…
I have a love hate relationship with winter. I love to watch the snow flutter down; swirling in the breeze. Watching how it piles up around the trees and shrubs. I love watching the dogs chase snowflakes, or the snow rooster tail off them as they run to fetch snowballs. Read more…
Last night was awards night at the high school for fall sports. Welding Boy and Blue Girl did cross country together this year. Special since Welding Boy is a senior and Blue Girl is a freshman. It was awesome to see all the fall sports kids so excited. In this Read more…
In the beginning of The Shattering, when I needed honest answers, I asked my husband WHY he betrayed everything good in this world. His answer was an even bigger disappointment than he was to me…. I thought I was in control. I had control of everything. For people like him, Read more…
I had a man, dressed in hunting gear and smelling horrible, walk up to me in a gas station and plainly state: You and me, we’re going out on the town for a date tonight! Does that line usually work? I’m blown away at the audacity of this grimy, only Read more…
For years I tolerated psychological warfare and narcissistic abuse in hopes that if I just worked hard enough I could turn my husband’s anger at me around. If I could just be patient enough he would see I was trying so hard to support him. For years I was told: Read more…
This year may be a train wreck. However, when I look back, I can now see that several other years have also been train wrecks. I made excuses why things were happening, I was confused, I couldn’t see through the manipulation. I always distracted myself with cooking, and having family Read more…
In the weeks following utter betrayal I did what every discarded, blindsided, soon to be ex-wife does. I thought I wasn’t enough for him: I wasn’t sexy enough, I wasn’t thin enough, I wasn’t organized enough, I wasn’t fashionable enough, I wasn’t quiet enough, I didn’t buy into conventional beauty Read more…
Today is a good day so far. After several days of chronic exhaustion, emotional dullness, and kids fighting illnesses I needed a good day! I received a call last Thursday asking me to come in for an interview at a state run facility. It is a good distance from the Read more…